My eyes are dozing but I just can’t go upstairs.  The news scares me when your not here.  Dreamt that I was in the hospital, alone and I didn’t have any ID on me so they didn’t know who to call. Then I realized we come in the world alone and leave alone, that scares me. Going somewhere without you scares me.  I guess, in case you didn’t notice I don’t roam far from home or from you. It’s always you who roams and I know it’s always been necessary but some how now that we are coming to the end of the road I’m afraid we won’t see each other again.  It was bye mom and poof she was gone. Remember that?  Bye and 3 days later she was in the ground.  This time of our lives gives us too much time to think. Someday we’ll kiss goodbye and poof all the memories will be up in the air and the string that we have held onto all these years is beyond our fingertips.  The Manor House, the Oasis, Berea, Reynolds all of it will be like faded pictures that can’t be restored. It’s 2 AM and I’m eating a can of Early Garden Sweet Peas and missing you sooooooo  much.