I’m sad.  Feeling left behind as he cares for his other love- His mom.  Being without mine for over 45 years, my world revolves around him. When he’s away, the merry-go-round stops .  The horses don’t gallop, the music doesn’t play and the gold ring is beyond my reach.  My Carousel becomes silent and lonely waiting for his voice, his touch, or just the twinkle of his eye to start our lives turning again.  I will dust, oil and repair our Carouseled life until his return and our life lightens my eyes, heart and love again.