My mind seems to be replaying parts of my life.  It’s not daydreaming it’s just vivid memories flashing through my mind.  Is there a message that needs to be interpreted, corrected or resolved.  I can’t say I feel any guilt for any of my life and if taken back to certain stages I’m not sure I would do anything different unless circumstances of the moment were different.  Is this my life beginning to flash back letting me know my days are limited? Yes, at this age, the years are limiting down to a precious few, birthdays, holidays, moments of joy, times of sadness are dwindling to a handful of moments to be treasured more, with less decorations and preparations but with more love, hugs and words of encouragement.

As a teenager I remember the conflicts with my mother as her views and mine were so different and I bulked instead of honoring her opinions.  I see the honor my husband gives his mother, as she is progressing through dementia and making unending and off the wall demands, with love, consideration and obedience.   At this time in my life my only responsibility I feel is to give my husband the time and accolades as he eases his mother’s mind with his love and constant attention.  As I witness his unending patience and love I realize this is the reason I knew he was the one, the sweet person that I wanted to spend my life with.

So as the memories flash and my clocks chime and no one knows for whom the bell tolls, I pray that my time has not come and that I have more tolling bells left to fulfill Gods role for me in this life before He shows me what His after life has in store for me.