Baby after a set of

Twin girls

Makes me believe

She saw two halves

Of a whole

Two opposites that

Attract

Two puzzle pieces

That fit

Wondering if

She got to know

Only the one

But sees the

Other now that she’s

Gone…

One following two

Trying to account

For three

As her heart broke

Then was rekindled

In one

Spoke to me about the

Two as she always

Saw something as

She stared at me…

Did she wonder about

Them as she watched

Me growing into

Something they never would…

She felt she failed them

And told me that often

Did she feel she

Would mess me up

So she stepped back

Putting me totally

On him…

Daddy’s girl I became

Was it by choice or

By resignation…

Things I feel in my heart

And see in my mind

As I review those

23 years with her…

Did she do the same

With her second

Rainbow

Giving her to me

As my responsibility

At birth and then

Again when they

Were going to go into

Her brain, saying this

Is on you…I don’t want

This you guilted me

Into it…

You have the responsibility

Of the aftermath

I won’t be here to

Do it was the conversation

As she went to the

Lobby during the proceedure

Giving me the paperwork

To sign with dad…

At 18 it was legal

And I gladly signed

As she knew I would

As her mind closed

Down knowing she

Would be gone when

Needed…

Would be the one

To take over…

She did have that belief

In me…just realizing

This now…gives me

A totally different

View of my mother…

She had faith and trust

In me like no other…

But then she knew

We were her rainbows

And would stick together

Like no others..,

Praise God for this

Final insight of

Love for my mother…